so i didnt know

that my pills ive been taking were also
dietary supplement pills
wtf!!!!!!
they were in incredibly small teeny little letters
how can my mom not know when she gave them to me?!
fucking asian pills
i gotta say they really do work
ugh
i was wondering why i couldnt finish my carne asada fries!<3
anyways i gave them to my mom cause she wanted them lol

YOU

Fucked me up
I wish i never met you
I never reply to you on purpose
You deserve to be lonely
You could've had me.

this has to be A-Trak's best work so far

Les petits pilous

Lykke Li's album for Christmas?

i love this bitch

So i left my job

To finish school and shit
But since i've had more time
I've only been going out more and more
Fuck i want my job back
I havent even been doing my homework
Fuck my LIFE

lol diplo

Major Lazer "Keep it Going Louder" from Eric Wareheim on Vimeo.

Guys

are weird
Your either a slut or a creep
the normal decent ones have become extinct
i will find out every little lie later
and ill make you look as dumb as you can ever be
why cant guys just like ONE fucking girl?
they gotta be sluts and just call every girl their boo and shit
idc i wanna be lesbian

Mom,

I'm gonna do whatever the hell I want with my life.

i was wrong, all guys are the same, this is where i start to turn gay cause guys cant like just ONE girl to make you feel special. IM LOST. i need to go back being the pot head again

work

was damn good today
thank god only 4 hours
but yeah im tired
and cold
time to pull out those
fuzzy blankets from the closet :)

October

Birthday is in a few weeks
Im so excited
Been waiting for this day
To turn 18 and shit
Dont have to be minor anymore
Ha
Scion night on the 20th
Excited for that too
Cuz its free :)
Universal maybe next week
With jeanet and her boy
Not going if its just gonna be us though
I dont wanna be that third wheel shitt.
And Work is great,
I can do everything right.
And having my best friend dina there,
And co workers that i already knew
Makes it so much more fun
I guess hard haunted for halloween -__-
Idk. im tired of all the events and shit
Once i turn 18 we're gonna stop doing the dance partything
And just go to moscow & backlight & ave shit like that
Fuck the Heist. ew ha
Last night i got free passes to House
Idk who gave them to me but it was someone who shoots for glamer
So we'll be going to that
Great ramma moved out
She felt bad for us
Trying to move out
Not like i still wanna live here anyways
Neither do my siblanggggs
Well now i get to be home alone in the mornings.
COLD cold mornings

This is pretty much my fuckin favorite time of the year 

last night.

NO MORE. ha

Moving soon

Waiting for mom to decide which house
I guess from her choices
I cant wait though.
Been in this house for only 2 years i think?
Tired of this neighborhood already
Everyones nice and chill
But like i wanna meet new ppl
Girls more. like my age
Cuz all my nieghbors i know are guys
And their old freaks
But yeaaah gonna pack some of the shit already
Not reallly i just took all the shit off my walls lol
Thank god the weather is gonna be cooler
I wouldnt be able to fuckn stand packing, cleaning, moving shit
During the hotass heat
Everyones an asshole & grouchier during the summer
Cuz of the stupid heat and what not
& then more nicer during the winter season
Thank god for christmas during winter lol

Gonna sleep when i feel sleepy
Need to go to century
To get my school ID
Gonna see Jenna there
Go back to SG
Work permit shit
Wait for dina to get out of school
Back to career partners
Then w.e the rest with the best friend (:

finally,

SOMEBODY DIFFERENT!
i like how he doesnt wanna talk to anyone else
but me.
he shows it too
which is a plplusplusplusplusplusplussssssss
every other guy i liked or was interested in
HASSSSSS to be talking to another girl
and wants to keep shit lowkey
like why cant guys like just one girl?
i fuckin hate that.
players, sluts, whores, and all
i finally found some different from that
i like how he bugs the shit outta me too
he'll keep texting even if i dont wanna respond
not that i dont want to but i just get lazy to text back
or dont know what to say
he really trys & puts effort and shows he really wants me
and wants me to trust him (that he doesnt want me for tha pussay)
so now i do
still nervous tho
if he fucks up
im gonna turn gay
fo fucking real

just found out my dad is getting married this sunday
no wonder he's been MIA
i didnt even know he was seeing anyone
and the last time i saw him was about month ago
i swear he was on drugs or something
he was like talking with his hands waving around 
and he kept saying weird shit
like
"Kimmy do you have a boyfriend?
cause its alright if you do"
i wonder if he was beong sarcastic
though it didnt even look like it
and i looked at him with a confused look and laughed
i know i embarrassed him
thats not the kind of dad i had
im positive he was on something
my sister even knew so
anyway not attending this wedding
its like his 5th one
and we all know what the fuck is gonna happen
i hate the pops.

Nocturnal

So saturday was Nocturnal
shit was annoying in the beginning
and i just wasnt really excited
and wasnt looking forward to it
but damn i had to say i started having alot
of fun towards the middle to end
so much fun
was with a big group of ppl
and trust its harder to have evryone keep up and shit
but everyone was rolling balls
shit was fckn funnnnnnnnnayyyyy
the only sober ones was me, dina, and strawberry jess
and a few other guys
was so close to dropping tho
but i was like nahhhhhh
fuck that e tard shit
got a free case of red bull
like everyone was too nice and shit
met up & saw alot of friends
like even ran into YULTRON
haha
and laidback luke killed it
i forgot who else i saw already
haha
oh drop the lime
someone spiked his drink ha
it was pretty much a lonng fun night
this nocturnal was better than last years

alcohol

i just act like a fucking dumbass when im drinking
the shit i say, the way i act
i cant help it
fuck you alcohol
its too easy for me to get drunk
hahaha

useless

its 1:22am
i cant finish homework
at all
and i have class later
too many distractions.
crying my fuckin eyes out
for honestly no reason.
dehydrating.
i need water
i never even drink water

pet peeves

I HATE.

when someone keeps asking me
to send them a picture

you already know how i fucking look like.
and i dont know but i have terrbile self esteem
i wont send out no damn picture of me
who knows what the fuck theyre doing with it.
then they say oh come on for my picture id

really noowwwwwwww
fuckers

yay

tonight made up for last night
haha
rage was wack yesterday..
but went to harris today
fuck so much fun
met alot of ppl
saw friends
and got more bitches hating on us
we dont give no fuckk
hahaaaaaaaaaaaaa
then got raided
went to pose
jeanet, bunny, deebin, elektrolux,dean and me
all 6 of us got in for 75cents
LMAO
idk we were braggin and shit
hahaa
and bunny with her
throwing up all over the place
still love that yuckmouth
met so many ppl tonight
some nice asss cholos too
that actually dont try hitting on us
we luhhh u bitch comptonnnnn
im bored and cant sleeep
yet
im just hunrgrayyyyyyy

strawberry rage

last night was strwberrys kickback
jello shots, beer pong, alchy, food and what not
we had the idea to go to rage after tho
so me, jeanet and bunny left and we were gonna come back after rage
lol bunny had to pop a squat
so i left with her to go around the corner in a dark street
next thing i know i looked up and there was a guy staring down
from his balcony, we just stared at him for the longest time
then me and bunny looked at each other with weird faces
and she started to grab me and runn
then she trips on this hill doorstop thingy and scraped her knee
BADLY, she was drunk and faded lol
i fell on top of her lol, felt bad
but i couldnt stop laughing. haha
so when we got to rage it was like 11,
i got dean to get me in,
but he couldnt get jeanet and bunny in
they didnt have money so i just payed 10 bux for the both of them
got in and there was alotttt of ppl but no one was dancing
it was just a kickback kinda thing
there was another room inside where ppl were dancing but it got hot
idk rage sucked and we didnt end up going back to the kickback
went to el monte then we just went home.
yeah okayy night i guess

IVE MADE MY BED, SO ILL LIE IN IT!

Okay, so i ended NOT falling asleep last night
layed in bed texting and listening to my ipod
then got out of bed and just got ready for school
Went to school chilled with dina,
Went to class, stayed for 11 mins cuz my teacher is so dope <3 haha
waited for dina & rena to get out of school
Then was informed that i got the jobbbbbbb
its gonna be like my 4th job ha
So yeah went to mcdonalds then dina dropped me off at home
Got ready for the show, bunny came over
bussed it to little tokyo to wait for jeanet
then after she closed, made our way to sunset strip
looking for a damn parking spot
found one on some valet balcony lot
drank JOSE CUERVO
hahahahaha.
walked it to the HOB
got to the door and they said they were sold out
so we just went in, talked to the security guard
and he let us in haha
just in time for bmth
but yeah
we ended getting too close to the pit.
i was fuckin dying.
fuck being short around sweating ppl
seriously
and left shoulder is fucking soreeeeeee
bunny stole one of their mics on stage haha
chilled around for a bit
saw that krissy bitch
that doesnt like bunny
she looks like a KANGAROO
fuckin krissykangarookills!
haha
im fucking tiredddddd
strawberry'skickback tomorrow
woo goodnight

DREAMS

Just got out the shower.
Fucking weird day
Fuckkkkkkkk
Woke up at idk, 1
Felt horriblely shitty
Took some pills
Then i forgot i took some supplementary pills last night
Felt naseated and tinglely the whole day
Thought i was gonna fall over
Hated today.
Except for when dina came over
I think i just needed company
Dina always makes my day better
Of course
It Only Takes One Good Person To Make Your Day.
Lol dina was telling me her weird ass dream
But dreams are always weird & random as fuck
I wonder what they mean and shit.

Anyways, gonna see bmth tomorrow
Planned this since i missed the STY show,
And NO ticket in advance.
Oh well hopefully its not sold out.
Cause
Oli sykes. Nom
Gonna be with Jeanet & bunny
Time to get hammered
I wish Jenna could come
We'd have a threesome with oliver
Ha

Okay gonna fall asleep at like 3 hopefully
Cuz i have school tomorro at 1
For an hour
But ima go early
To kick it with the best friend
And walk around the school during lunch time
Picturing EVERYONE bald
And have them wonder what were laughing at.

NIGHT

Productivity

Today,
Woke up in the afternoonish and
Wow i did my homework.
Like right away
Finished alot of it actually.
And i even wrote an essay
Good music was kinda distracting me
Like Hypem lol
Neighbor came over asked me to go to their BBQ
I denied. felt bad.
I just wanted to get some homework done
Even though it was all due thursday
haha
Oh well.


Wanted to get shit off my mind from yesterday too
Not a good day it was.

IF A MAN WANTS YOU.

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to Be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly Happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you Deserve
Then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a Friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he Probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at Yourself
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a
Two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not
Supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you are
Always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.